Counting down

Argh I want to sing K. I want to watch movie. I want to eat nice food. I want to play mahjong and poker. I seriously need a break now. I am going to recharge myself during this coming new year break. Drink carbonated drinks and eat lot of junk food. Watch lot of movies, whether it is new one or obsolete one.

Yeah it is time to countdown aldy

It is Time

Yeah it is time to give up. Not going to think about it. Many other things are waiting ahead of me. I am not going to waste time on thing that I wont be able to get it. Stop the desire, stop the suffering. I have to believe in this teaching now.

season of farewell

It is the season of bidding farewell. And this season makes me hate Australia so much. It takes away the people whom I care about and whom I want to spend time with. Australia is one of my dream country before this, but now I really don't like it anymore because best fren, Shi Hwee and the cute little Jia Yie and Jia Yue are flying there very soon. Best friend is leaving next week to further her study there, and the little Jia Yie siblings are migrating there. How sad it is when nobody play with me and shop with me when I go back to Muar for holiday next time. It is really a truth that people will only know how to appreciate objects or person when they are going to lose it. I understand this type of feeling very well now.

Suddenly I miss the moment of being bullied by Jia Yie and Jia Yue, miss the moment they told me the stories about Ben 10 and Mickey Mouse,, miss the moment they read story books in front of me. All these scenes are going to end very soon. They will only transform into memory deep inside my heart.

I miss the moment I had together with Shi Hwee here. She is always there to tell me the stories about her collegemates which I like so much. She is always there to introduce new things to me, and she is always there to listen to me without any grudges. This is the first time I don't have much mood to celebrate new year though it is around the corner aldy. She is going to fly off on new year eve, what a sad thing for me to accept. Reunion?It wont be complete without best friend around.

Life is really about suffering. Based on what I study in religion, the more I want to grasp on something, the more I will suffer. But it is always hard to eliminate all these desires and cravings. I am going to suffer with all these desires, I know